Friday, May 17, 2013

Easy To Express

I've been thinking a lot these days... Well, I always think a lot. Anyway, I am in this period of re-evaluating goals that I have in my life. Actually, I lost a dream that was connected to almost every plan or goal I had, and now I have to do it all over again. Oh, I have dreams, ok, but this one was the dream, the one that is hard and very unlikely to become true, the one that occupies your mind and makes you think about and do things you could never imagine you'd do. That dream inspired me to live my life to the fullest, and now it is gone...

So I am thinking how true it is that happiness is a journey, not a destination... And how easy it is to express happiness, but it's not that easy to describe it. On the other side, the sadness, pain, suffering, misery... Books have been written about it. Why is that? I want to learn to describe happiness. Well, it might be somehow hard to do that right now because I am in my sad place. Later maybe? I will be in the mad road, and then after that comes the path of indifference. Oh, I love that one. After that I'll go for another lap of pain and then I'm done. After all those places, paths, laps and roads I'll get to my happy place just to realise that I have to start my journey again, but with someone else.

We all have different ways of dealing with pain. If I would deal with it by writing, then I could write a book. But I don't want to, I'm trying really hard not to do that. So I might start writing again when I learn to describe hapiness with more than "I am happy!"